In the past I’ve never really thought much about my future. By future I mean 10 years or more down the line. But Myozyme came. It gave me hope. Over the past year, I’ve probably been more obsessed with the future than ever. I’ve started thinking what will happen to me in 10 years. Where would my family be, where would I be in relation to them. A great fear came back. That fear was growing old alone. I didn’t want that. I’m really a people person. I like being around people, I don’t like being alone. So that gave me a big scare.
But I forgot one important thing. I thought so much about the future that I’m failing to live for today. As much as the future is important, today or the present is the most important one. The future is yet to come but the present is here. It’s real. If I obsess to much about the future and not live today, I might just find that life has passed me by. Especially in circumstances like mine, wherein before Myozyme I’m sure I’d be weaker in the future than I am today. So there’s less that I can do. With Myozyme, it’s still a big question. Although, signs point to a more positive outcome.
Today is the most important time. I should start living for today. As much as I should think about the future, I should focus on the here and now. I should stand still and look around me. There’s a lot of blessings that have come my way today. I need time to stop and smell the flowers, as they say.